Let me just start off by saying I love you and I’m so happy for you. I am. I promise. But this letter is about me.
I was the one, or one of the ones, you called when you were down, when you were excited and when you just finished that first date. Remember those times? Remember when we used to go back and forth the about the good, bad and ugly of all those dates we went on looking for Mr. Right? I remember. And I miss those talks. Now that you’ve found Mr. Right, I am a ghost. I’m a vision of your life that was once and no longer somebody that you call. You don’t need my support, advice, encouragement or time anymore. You have his. He’s become your everything.
He should be your everything. But that doesn’t mean I don’t need you anymore.
I’ve lost my best friend. My go-to person. Sure, I have other friends I can go to, but my bond with you was something that was special to just us. And now you’re gone. See, this has happened to me before. I had hoped that was a one-time thing in my life. A unique experience, but somehow this has become my reality. Maybe it’s because you didn’t consider me to be your best girl friend like I do you. Maybe it’s because you simply can’t fit me into your life anymore. Maybe our season of friendship’s time is up. Or maybe it’s me.
Oh wait…facebook. Facebook has shown that you have time for other people. Is it because they are married, engaged or in long-term relationships? If I had a husband or was in a long-term relationship would we still have our friendship? I fear the answer is ‘yes’, because it’s easier to do “couple” things with other couples. I’m sorry I haven’t found Mr. Right yet. I’m still hopeful he exists. I actually use your love story as inspiration to keep going.
Just know I miss you and I hold a piece of our friendship dear to my heart…and I always will.